Dream and nightmare ???
I dreamt last nite tat i was driving my 4 wheel and it got stuck on a grave stone ... There was relocation of graveyard and the right path happens to be the wrong path ... (some hidden meaning)
I got killed by some creatures of the night of rather and my grandmother (now youthful looking in mid 30's ) coming to get me .. rescueing me but i knew tat i somehow lost the battle and now dying ... my grand hugged me commented me on how much i looked like her and i was safe in her arms ... safe as in dying . I wanted to die and was comfortably being envelope in a mist of slow death ... until she looked at me and said telepathicly ... someone coming for you ... she looked hurt and i was disappointed and felt someone stroking my head ... and i woke being stroked by my husband ....
Oddly i felt disappointed ... i didnt want to come back and to wake up gently stroke by him ..... tears slided down my eyes without my realissing it

After months of trying to search my heart on why I cant believe him and her ...

his diary fell on my lap ... and i read all the pages with so much hatred at first and then became so sad

He could lie so much ... I knew he never love me anyway so why the charade

They had an affair and fell deeply in love with each other and corrupted their love with passionate escapes .. why include me

wasnt it enough

they want it all .. she even gave me The Duchess to watch just incase i didnt understand what's going on

I cant complain how my life is leading to ... but why cant i love or return the love of someone (who have lied and cheated on me and now repent) Does it means i never forgave him or is it I fell out of love ...
Polite relationship and regular sex life but all is empty on my part ... i feel nothing nothing at all .... I cant return any emotions except intermitted anger and hurt

Is this normal feeling or am i damaged ??

true and untruth

when your spouse says they no longer love you, that doesn’t always mean the love is dead. It may simply mean the love has been covered up by anger, frustration, resentment or other emotions.

Typically, this occurs because of an affair or years of neglect.

To justify these feelings, your spouse may even start rewriting history to match this feeling that the love has died. He or she might say things like, “I never really loved you,” “I married you out of a sense of obligation,” or, “I was afraid you would fall apart if I left.”

As difficult as this situation may be, hope isn’t lost because…

If You Were Once in Love,
You CAN Fall in Love Again.

each day i feel suffocated .. my hatred for them is still deep but alhamdulillah imy love for god is great.
i feel like a whore each time .. am glad he got his wife to fulfill some of his needs .. when she takes over completely wc she seems to be wanting to .. at times snarling me for occupying his moments .. ha have him i dont want him .. i need the roof to live for my son and i

The man is playing ard ... pretending tat he hates her company but all the while he is just trying to set up another meeting. Luckily he had received enough anger treatment from me to play around by making the creep meet with me. I have no desire to meet any of this relatives ... his mothers and his lover/wife for the rest of my life or his which ever come first.

are they playing my emotions again ... i do believe in the supernatural and he claims that her family are doing voodoo stuff on him
My youngest got another theory .. she is trying to kill him and he is paranoid now cos he does realise things are not rite
Sumhow is theory is more believable .. she claims not know certain things and yet at her age ... she couldnt claim to be THAT IDIOTIC