Tuesday, May 18, 2010

today his 2nd wife admitted that she have been giving him a potion to "calm" him down. Each time he drinks he was / is given ... well she'll never change ... at least this time she is recite the quranic verses ...
I will not interfere with their unique love affair

Monday, May 17, 2010

as i watch him crying ... a joined him but not in his remorse but my inability to care anymore for him
I will do my duty as god wants me ... but i cant give him my heart ... it is broken too many time and all by him that i doubt if its there for anyone at all. I know i love my youngest son enormously but all others ... i care but i wont give them my all.
His new wife is trying desperately to be a friend but each step she takes ... i feel myself retreating backwards a thousand steps.
Is it my hatred or what is wrong with me ....

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Memories can be a funny thing ... your mind can delete some events that you wont or refuse to remember
For me ...
As i realise that my significant other while enamoured with love for the other woman .. nearly killed me and brutally beat me as i cursed and threaten to expose their relationship (or her to the office )
The second time when we were separated I managed to steal his handphone thus with documented proof of their affair ... he tried to run me over his car uttering wanting to kill me and later as i grabbed hold of his precious mont blanc ... It was their love pack thing ... he bought a his and hers mont black abt rm 2000 each
and later threw me a peace offering of rm 200 pens as a token
He will kill me to protect her ... that is wat love is all about
Just as he called her to see him at the hospital so tat people think she is the nice one protect and loving him

the question now is ... i am tired and care not about wat happens Told my youngest to let go if she manage to kill him ... she will not harm us if all the money is hers.