as i watch him crying ... a joined him but not in his remorse but my inability to care anymore for him
I will do my duty as god wants me ... but i cant give him my heart ... it is broken too many time and all by him that i doubt if its there for anyone at all. I know i love my youngest son enormously but all others ... i care but i wont give them my all.
His new wife is trying desperately to be a friend but each step she takes ... i feel myself retreating backwards a thousand steps.
Is it my hatred or what is wrong with me ....