Wednesday, December 29, 2010

why do a woman sets herself for same mistake by the same man ... drowning of dry land ... I must remember to do things for Allah and not for a miserable piece of man. My dugaan .. i have to accept it and move on
All words spew out are just to get himself laid or entertained ... nothing is for you .... Just look in the mirror see what is looking back ...
He found his soulmate and you are just some piece of shit which he likes to feel good doing charity work
I must realise that so that my pride doesnt get sway ... I am on this earth to obey the Almighty not have fun ..... I am not the lucky few to be blessed being loved.
My role model would be Ayesha the Pharoah's wife who's inner beauty outshine her own tremenodous beauty

Monday, November 8, 2010

the real truth

Arief told me the reason why his father is still hanging around and being extra nice .... afraid of my curses ..yep i remember the first one being his car spinning like crazee and then police bumping into him etc etc.

Explains alot why they both over the board with me .... but i know she hates me like crazie but pretending to be nice for his shake.

over pranoia with his email being hacked into ... just when mine was and he laughed it off Oh well

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Past ... unbelievable ... they can still hurt despite my moving on ... they are married now living with me ... using me as their maid and mediator. Do I believe that they are having marriage difficulties no ... deep down in think they are putting an act like before.

Monday, September 6, 2010

He gave me alot from his bonus ... perhaps his disappointment with her. But being narcist ... he swings from ultra nice to mean at a moments touch

Sunday, August 22, 2010

since Friday the man seems contented in abusing me .. i wanted him out of the house since fasting month and yet they mis-stayed
On Sat after my class he got more and more abusive until a few minutes before berbuka i asked him to move out ... he angrily obliged and slammed the grill door on his precious finger ... and bled the finger perhaps broke it too

I am tired each fasting month since his affair with her .. he kept abusing me more than ever during fasting month. Do i hate him ... needless to say ... but i will be strong insyallah

Monday, July 12, 2010

Each time he allows me to have my space .. he'll come and come up with so problems (never ending) with new wife cant handle and now .. 2 weeks and still staying occupying my house

Monday, June 14, 2010

What hurt the most is how my (in)significant other tries to whitewash his "infidelity" by claiming that he doesnt love the other woman ...haha ...have read his diary and his sms ..lies and more lies

I am too old to fight ... have nothing left ... so what I awaits my death and giving up this life ... I live on for my son ... and soon i will just be a speck in frothy water