After months of trying to search my heart on why I cant believe him and her ...

his diary fell on my lap ... and i read all the pages with so much hatred at first and then became so sad

He could lie so much ... I knew he never love me anyway so why the charade

They had an affair and fell deeply in love with each other and corrupted their love with passionate escapes .. why include me

wasnt it enough

they want it all .. she even gave me The Duchess to watch just incase i didnt understand what's going on

I cant complain how my life is leading to ... but why cant i love or return the love of someone (who have lied and cheated on me and now repent) Does it means i never forgave him or is it I fell out of love ...
Polite relationship and regular sex life but all is empty on my part ... i feel nothing nothing at all .... I cant return any emotions except intermitted anger and hurt

Is this normal feeling or am i damaged ??

true and untruth

when your spouse says they no longer love you, that doesn’t always mean the love is dead. It may simply mean the love has been covered up by anger, frustration, resentment or other emotions.

Typically, this occurs because of an affair or years of neglect.

To justify these feelings, your spouse may even start rewriting history to match this feeling that the love has died. He or she might say things like, “I never really loved you,” “I married you out of a sense of obligation,” or, “I was afraid you would fall apart if I left.”

As difficult as this situation may be, hope isn’t lost because…

If You Were Once in Love,
You CAN Fall in Love Again.

each day i feel suffocated .. my hatred for them is still deep but alhamdulillah imy love for god is great.
i feel like a whore each time .. am glad he got his wife to fulfill some of his needs .. when she takes over completely wc she seems to be wanting to .. at times snarling me for occupying his moments .. ha have him i dont want him .. i need the roof to live for my son and i

The man is playing ard ... pretending tat he hates her company but all the while he is just trying to set up another meeting. Luckily he had received enough anger treatment from me to play around by making the creep meet with me. I have no desire to meet any of this relatives ... his mothers and his lover/wife for the rest of my life or his which ever come first.

are they playing my emotions again ... i do believe in the supernatural and he claims that her family are doing voodoo stuff on him
My youngest got another theory .. she is trying to kill him and he is paranoid now cos he does realise things are not rite
Sumhow is theory is more believable .. she claims not know certain things and yet at her age ... she couldnt claim to be THAT IDIOTIC

Am a lonely star, always on the path of gloom-
In love with me n myself coz, no one else cared,
I would wade into the depths of sorrow-
And grieve till my eyes could no longer fill


I would fake myself in to believe that,
One day I will emerge from the deep dark depths-
Of my own sorrow and longing,
To a new day with a fresh beginning


Memories burning in my soul, tears in my eyes
I still keep waiting for my lost sunshine
But I know my life won’t be the same again,
Still I keep waiting for her to return……